Remember this? “Well… I’m apparently really good at falling for someone way too quickly if I decide I like them… And it makes me kind of afraid that this friendship that currently makes me rather happy is going to put me back in a place I don’t want to be this soon.” Well, I was right. I liked him and it made him uncomfortable, so he took away the shot he was going to give us before I even had a chance. And I don’t know what the alternative is. The way I was with him is just the way that I am. When I like a guy, and they seem to share the feeling, which I honestly thought he did at least a little bit, then I really really like them. And it doesn’t happen that much. But it’s always ended the same… With an “I’ve been leading you on. I want to be friends. I just can’t be more.” The alternative to me falling so hard, though, is closing myself off and building up these walls to the possibility of someone liking me (which, honestly, I think is where this boy was at himself), and I would rather be hurt a million times over than do that. I just wish a guy would seriously like me back for once. I am hurt and I am confused. And “I just wasn’t comfortable with you liking me so much” just doesn’t seem like a very good reason for calling everything off. I don’t even understand how that feeling is even possible.